How I Became A Conspiracy Thinker

How did I get started digging for the truth? That word – TRUTH. It’s one of the most important words in the world to me. I want the whole truth and nothing but the truth, no matter what. Lie to me and it automatically takes our relationship down a peg, or ten. Maybe it’s living with lies from our adopted teens for so many years, I don’t know. I put a high premium on the truth. It really all comes down to trust. Truth and trust go hand in hand. If you lie to me there is no trust anymore.

I am, what many people would call a conspiracy theorist. I prefer conspiracy thinker but either way those are just words that mean I think about things and want to know more. I ask question after question trying to get to the bottom of things. I want to know the truth. Even when it’s hard, I want to know. Many things in our world today have deeper meanings. What we see is many times not what is really going on. I’d like to know when it became a bad thing to be a critical thinker and why we don’t teach it in our schools anymore. Seems as if this should be required learning in our schools. Since when has searching out the truth become so evil?

Christian Holidays?

When did this questioning and digging begin? I remember the moment as if it were yesterday. It was Easter Sunday more than twenty years ago and I was standing at the kitchen counter putting together our lunch. Tom, my awesome husband, was sitting at our kitchen table with his laptop facing me. We were chatting back and forth about nothing in particular when he asked, “I wonder how all of this Easter stuff got started?” I answered, “Well, you are sitting at your laptop. Look it up.”

In less than two minutes he said, “You are not going to believe this?” As he read what he had found we looked at each other in horror. We had no idea how ritualistic pagan this so-called Christian holiday was. As he continued to read to me we realized there was no way we could “celebrate” this day ever again. We learned that early on in Christianity paganism had completely taken over the beautiful Passover and Resurrection of Yahshua (Jesus) and turned it into a festival full of pagan imagery and rituals. Those pagan rituals were based literally on the ancient pagan goddess Ishtar (Easter) and included rabbits, eggs, the sun, and fertility.

With much trepidation I said, “Look up Christmas.” Now our family loved Christmas. With lots of children it was one of our favorite times of the year. I baked, we decorated, and we loved the entire holiday season. I watched his face as he was reading and knew in my heart that Christmas was a goner, too. Those same evil pagan festivals of ancient times had been combined with the birth of Yahshua. In fact, no one actually knows when He was born but since the sheep were still in the open, was most likely in the fall before the cold set in.

We learned that the date of December 25th was actually the birth of an ancient pagan god and a time for much evil to take place without reprisal. Basically you could get away with murder and other horrific crimes during that time period with no justice done. It was during the time of Constantine that Yahshua’s birth was combined with the pagan deity’s birth date so pagans would accept Christianity as the State Religion and make Constantine’s life easier. Here was another huge lie that we had automatically accepted because of tradition. All of the holiday rituals we celebrated were in fact pagan in origin and not Christian at all.

What else is a lie?

That was the day everything changed for me. I thought, “If the origin of these two pagan festivals was hidden from us, what else are we being lied to about?” The digging began. Weeks and sometimes months were spent on just one subject. Easter and Christmas were researched for months, then other holidays like Halloween.

One by one we opted out of celebrations as we learned the truth about their origins. Some around us ridiculed our decisions. Reasons they were going to continue celebrating were justified to us. We were told things like, “We do it for our children” or “We make sure it revolves around Jesus.” We simply replied, “That is your choice.” We are not in the convincing business.

The Word of Yahweh (the Bible) is pretty specific about the subject of pagan rituals. It is the reason why the Israelite’s were taken into captivity 2500 years ago. The Israelite’s refused to give up their pagan festivals and rituals. Did you know they celebrated “Christmas” in Jeremiah’s time even before the birth of Yahshua? In many instances those Israelite’s said they were celebrating those pagan festivals in Yahweh’s Name. Yes.

They had a very bad habit of taking a pagan festival or ritual and renaming it and celebrating it in Yahweh’s Name, the same way Christianity does today. Justification. We humans are great at justifying things. There is a big problem with that. Yahweh told them in no uncertain terms exactly how they should worship Him and it was not under the guise of a pagan ritual like cakes to the queen of heaven (Jeremiah 7:18) Hot cross buns anyone? Or the decorated tree of Jeremiah 10:3-4:

3 For the practices of the peoples are worthless;

    they cut a tree out of the forest,

    and a craftsman shapes it with his chisel.

4 They adorn it with silver and gold;

    they fasten it with hammer and nails

    so it will not totter.

Deeper subjects in the Bible began to cross my path. Who was really who in the Bible took me on a Bible history lesson spanning many years. I’m still on that journey. I wanted to know who the players were, who the families really were then and who they are today, and I wanted to know why Yahweh put the genealogies in there. I knew it had to be for a reason or they wouldn’t be there.

When I started this journey I had one mostly unused NIV Bible. Now I have piles of Bibles and stacks of extra-Biblical books and literature to compare scripture. Tom once jokingly asked me how many Bibles and books I really needed.

Everything is connected

My eyes were opened and I was amazed to learn that situations which took place 4,000, 6,000, and even longer ago had consequences that were still being played out today. The same players from all those millenniums ago were major players on the world scene today. It was upsetting to me that these things were not being taught by church leaders and in fact, those leaders were actually teaching something quite different.

We stopped attending church after realizing that not only were churches teaching paganism beliefs (Christmas and Easter to name two) but were messing with Biblical history to the point that most church goers today have no idea they most likely have Israelite blood in them and they give an enormous amount of money and pray for the people who Yahweh says is their sworn enemies. After trying to bring these things to the attention of several pastors and being told we didn’t know what we were talking about, we realized it was more important to those pastors to lead a large congregation than it was to teach the truth and we walked away from organized religion for good.

The rabbit holes of past and current events started creeping in after realizing that many things I was reading in Yahweh’s Word was matching up to real life. I found lie after lie after lie. All those lies simply for the purpose of keeping the people of the world unaware that their heritage and wealth was being stolen from them. After sharing some of what I had found out only to be ridiculed more and called names, I backed away from sharing but kept digging and studying.

The Bible tells us in 2 Timothy 2:15 to study to show thyself approved. Paul admonishes us to stop taking things at face value and study to know the real truth. He told that to people about what he was teaching them. He wanted them to be critical thinkers/conspiracy thinkers. Prove what I’m saying is true or false is what he told them. If Paul wanted people to fact check what he was telling them, how much more so should we be digging for the truth on what we are being told, both in our Bibles and from the world?

Open my eyes to the truth

Face value is just that, surface. Most truth is well hidden and must be searched out. I think this is the reasoning behind the Scripture which states, “Ask and you shall receive…” in Matthew 7:7. I believe that verse is all about asking for the truth. One of my favorite verses is in 2 Kings 6. In verse 17 Elisha asks Yahweh to open the eyes of his servant so the servant could see that not only were they surrounded by enemies but those enemies were surrounded by fiery chariots and horses. I pray daily that Yahweh would open my eyes so I will see the truth of what I am searching for and what He wants me to know and then to give me the strength to handle and share what I am seeing.

Human trafficking and even worse

There have been a lot of sleepless nights on some of this. And many tears shed for the innocent lives lost to an evil so horrific that I truly never believed it could be that bad. My brain is forever burned with the images of tortured, raped, and abused babies and children. Human trafficking, babies being sold and tortured, and the drinking of babies blood before killing and eating them were things I never knew were real things. I am someone who would never read horror novels or go to a horror movie and now was now neck deep in a horror so real no movie could even come close. Some days I ask myself how that could come to be.

One very deep and ugly rabbit hole surfaced. Moloch. I knew that name. It is in the Bible. It is another name for Ba’al, the false god of the Canaanites who lived at the time of the Israelite’s. It was a god that required the sacrifice of babies and children. A god traced back to the ancient city of Babylon when it was built by Nimrod, a descendant of Cain. Not only did that rabbit hole go all the way back to the Garden of Eden with Adam, Eve, and Satan, but forward to the world we live in today.

The tentacles of that secret Mystery Babylon religion has its hold on our world today, we are being strangled by it, and most people don’t have any idea that it even exists. The word SECRET being the optimal word. If something is good it doesn’t need to be cloaked in secrecy. I think of all the secret societies of the elite of our world. It’s not a huge leap to realize they are practicing an evil secret religion full of horrific rituals that any sane person must wonder how can anyone do those things? The answer to that is for another time. For now I will just say that Satan exists and there is evil being done that will never be ended until Yahweh returns. Come quickly is my daily prayer.

Two warnings

There are two warnings that I must share before you start digging, if you choose to go down that path. First, there are two words the Bible is based upon. Trust and obey. They are incredibly important to Yahweh. To trust Him no matter what your eyes see or your ears hear. And obey. My warning is this. Should you come across something as truth like we did with Easter and Christmas an immediate decision to obey Yahweh is required. There can be no justifying or excuses as to why the disobedience can continue. When you decide to obey, more truth will be opened to you because He knows you are obedient. When you decide to disobey, the truth door is shut and many times locked tight.

I liken it to being a parent. If my child comes to me with a question and I answer but he does the complete opposite of what I said what will I do the next time he comes to me with a question? Hmmm…he didn’t listen to me last time so why should I bother answering this time? I wonder if this is the reason so many are saying things like, “I don’t even feel or hear God speaking to me or I pray but I hear nothing.”

If this is you then may I suggest you take some time to get right with Him. Ask His forgiveness for any time He may have given you the truth and you didn’t act on it. Ask Him to open your eyes that you may see the truth in what He wants you to do and tell Him that no matter how hard it might be you will follow through.

I am incredibly grateful that on a daily basis I can talk with Him and get answers. Big things. Small things. He is right there. I believe it is because He knows that no matter what He asks of me I will comply immediately. There are times I may ask for confirmation (like Gideon and the wool) and He has always given it. Obedience is critical for a follower of Yahweh. And then be grateful for all things, even the hard stuff. More on being grateful another time.

Second, you must be strong in the Word, the Bible. I begin every day in prayer and reading. A few months ago I started writing out one of the Psalms every morning. I talk through it with Him as I write it out. Then I keep my Bible close at hand and am in constant communication with Him as I dig through the tunnels of knowledge.

There have been many times when watching a video or reading something horrific that I open my Bible and read a passage and then pray before going back to more watching and reading. I ask for guidance on how to proceed and what to do with the information I am given. Constantly. I remember Ezekiel 33, and the responsibility of a watchman, knowing that is my purpose, to share what I’ve learned.

Rarely will you find the truth on the surface of things. The truth is usually buried like a priceless treasure. That has been my journey as a conspiracy thinker. Learning the truth about as many things as I can. On this blog I will share what I’ve learned about various topics. Follow me down some rabbit holes and we will discover together.

This is Simply My Opinion,

Kathe

Leave a comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *